Hope

You know when you are breaking down, and you felt there’s no one you feel like you can turned to, no one you felt like running to because you had to explained to them what you’re going through, there will be too many questions coming from them and while you’re explaining about how you feel you might choke on your own tears.

That’s bad. That’s really bad. You brought this mess on your own. You need to clean it up. You need to pick yourself up. You need to suck it. You need to take it one shot and cry by yourself if it helps while it’s hurting. Until you don’t feel hurt any more.

There’s just too much sadness you’re carrying inside. Too many grudges you kept filed. You put hope on a chair and put it in a corner. You hardly talked to it or let itself be heard. You’re scared of it, you’re terrified.

You don’t believe it.