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Fun like the fling. Smart like the psycho. Career-wise like the mummy's boy. Handsome like the first ex.

Still on men, yup.

I'm wondering why the hell I still miss these assholes.

Fun like the fling. I missed all the first times. I missed how he propped my legs on his lap when I sat beside him while he plays the Prince of Persia on his friend's Xbox (I think). I think he was trying to impressed me when he told me his little secret that he actually couldn't helped himself to boast about -- that I don't care if it's bad, with me he was a gentleman. I missed how he knew I will only ordered Nescafe. I missed that devilish grin. I missed how he goes nuts when he has to keep his hands off me. I missed those times we exchanged e-mails, exchanged sarcasms. I missed when he calls me, 'love', although it never means anything to him. I missed seeing him happy with the simplest thing that is most precious to him -- his friends. There's a lot of things that I adored and missed about him but alas, he's just a real life John James Preston.

Smart like the psycho. One of my weaknesses is intelligence. He knows a lot about the current affairs, politics, culture, music (pfft, boys), environment, food, art, books, movies, animals, et cetera. He opened my mind to a lot of things. He was very, very interesting to me that I am happy to just make acquaintance with him. He was nice and friendly. And then he started to flirt. And then he asked for my number. And then we went out and after a long, long time, that first time holding hands' moment was ... wow. And then he turned bossy, becomes the biggest bully, goes beyond the grumpy guy to bipolar and eventually, a pyscho. Weird. I missed this crazy guy once in a while, out of fondness when he was none of what he then turned out to be.

Career-wise like the mummy's boy. In my girlfriend's words, "Isn't there a doctor in this family of his that will then make the whole picture perfect?" In the long run, he will prospered and becomes ever more successful, hired as an associate by one of the Fortune 500 (is it still relevant in 2013?) after he graduated. He was the potential life partner, a Kennedy of sort but I guess I was just too blonde for his perfect life.

Handsome like the first ex. Girls craned and turned their necks whenever he passed by. He has perfect teeth, deep set eyes, tall and stylish. This one I don't miss. I already put the last nail to the coffin.